Who am I?

 Who am I?

Well, that’s the ultimate question and a virtually impossible one to answer.

I can tell you that I am Mother to two and Wife to one.  I am Daughter and Sister and Friend.

Who am I to myself is a harder question to answer. I am a struggling artist, but not in the way you’d expect.  This isn’t about financial hardship or being ‘discovered’, although those are both yet unattained goals,  but more the constant questing that I feel my life appears to be all about.

This quote means a lot to me:

“What screws us up most in life is the expectation that things should be different”

I am always thinking that I should be doing something else or I am missing something.  I find it very hard to sit still, but at the same time I find it very hard to get started on things.  I’m one of those people who spends the whole day doing things and at the end of day feels as though they have accomplished nothing.

When it comes to my creative self, I find it hard to focus on one thing as my brain is constantly moving from one craft to another.  I love to create in all ways, but feel perpetually challenged by the voices in my head; the voice that tells me I should focus on creating a recognizable style in my art and the other voice, the creative one, that tells me I should just do and see what happens.

So, I am a frustrated Artist.